Karena Kutahu Engkau Begitu*

Last night I had an interesting chat with a friend. He’s the guy who broke my heart two years ago 😉 We never had a real thing going on (I insisted on naming it a ‘platonic relationship’ yeah…right :P). He is a great guy: good looking, sporty, has his own band (how cool is that?), smart, funny, and industrious with a bright career. I met him in a few occasions before he left Jakarta. Since then, he has been working in many countries, Malaysia, Japan, UAE to name a few. And I fell in love with him after he left 🙂 Yes, it was never real. We just chat and had a good time getting to know each other. It’s never meant to be any other thing. But..I liked him. I let my feelings shown. That was ‘Sway’ all over my head (it doesn’t seem right /To look you in the eye/And let all the things you mean to me/Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time/To tell you why/I say its infinetely true/Say you’ll stay/Don’t come and go/Like you do/Sway my way/Yeah I need to know). Of course, as predicted, he bailed out. He promised to call if he went to Jakarta. Well, he was here three times. And he never called. I was shattered. I thought to myself ‘How can I misread all his signals? He seems to like me, he’s comfortable talking to me about everything including his past relationship, his family, and other stuff. He confides in me.’ Yes, but the truth is… he never gave his heart. I decided to stop communicating with him. I just couldn’t play along. I never wanted to be his confidante. I never wanted to be part of his commitment issues (five jobs in two years may prove a little more than that). Then, after months of not hearing from him, I added him again to my YM list (I have a new account). We chat a couple of times, he gave his number (just in case I might travel to Manila). Last night, he gave me a buzz and initiated a conversation. He told me his fears of taking a big leap to the US, of the possibilities that he may go there, live an easy life and won’t go back. He said ‘But im scared coz i want some challenging life. Challenging job.’ I told him my opinion about that matter. I convinced him to take up the challenge. I was being a good friend. At the end of the chat, he told me to give him a buzz whenever I see him online. That time I realized, he’s never changed. He’s still the very same guy I knew 🙂 A stallion who runs free, never meant to be tamed. And sometimes he needs another who’s just as wild to run with. Just sometimes. Well, it’s not gonna be me… I will be here when he needs to talk. I will cheer him up when he’s low-spirited. I will say everything he needs to hear. But buzz him? I will not 😉 This is KKEB (Karena Kutahu Engkau Begitu) all over my head 🙂 * (just this line, not the whole romantic song)


Why So Serious?: Note on Batman: The Dark Knight

The Dark Knight

Batman: The Dark Knight

This movie got mixed reviews from my friends. Some say it is unbelievably good, others think it is plain boring. I went to check it out myself, and I must say it is okay. Not as good as I’ve expected, but it is surely worth-watching especially if you consider the fact that it’s Heath Ledger’s last movie. I don’t know whether they planned it from the start or they flipped the plot and the editing after Ledger’s death, this movie’s mojo is Joker’s character (played brilliantly by Heath Ledger). It is a smart move, I must say, as people are eager to know the role of Joker who led Ledger to his untimely death. As reported, Ledger was locking himself for a month to be able to get into the dark side of Joker. This had taken its toll on him, stress and depression made him unable to sleep. In one attempt to get some rest, he took several medications and never woke up.

Batman: The Dark Knight is directed by Christopher Nolan, who also directed its prequel Batman Begins. It starred Christian Bale who reprises the role as Batman/Bruce Wayne. The movie also featured Michael Caine (as Alfred Pennyworth), Gary Oldman (James Gordon), Aaron Eckhart (Harvey Dent), Morgan Freeman (Lucius Fox), and Maggie Gyllenhaal who now replaced Katie Holmes for the role of Rachel Dawes.

The film begins with the Joker robbing a mob-owned bank with several other accomplices, whom he tricks into killing each other. Batman and Lieutenant James Gordon contemplate including new district attorney Harvey Dent in their plan to eradicate the mob, as he could be the public hero Batman cannot be. Bruce discovers that Harvey Dent is dating Rachel Dawes (his childhood friend slash the woman he loves). Mob bosses meet to discuss Batman, Gordon, and Dent, while a Chinese mobster accountant, Lau, informs the gang leaders he has taken their money to Hong Kong to preempt a plan that Dent hatches to seize the mobsters’ loot. The Joker arrives unexpectedly, offering to kill Batman for half their money.

When Batman successfully abducts Lau in Hong Kong and delivers him to the Gotham City police, the mobsters agree to hire the Joker. The Joker tells all of Gotham that if Batman does not turn himself in to the police, people will die each day. When the Joker begins killing public officials, including Commissioner Loeb and the judge presiding over the mob trials, Wayne decides to turn himself in. Before he can do so, Dent announces that he is Batman, to draw the Joker out of hiding. The Joker attempts to kill Dent, but Gordon and Batman intervene and arrest him.

Until this point, it looked like we have a perfectly happy ending. But it ain’t over till the fat lady sings! But I’m not gonna spoil your fun by telling you the ending 🙂 What I can assure you is, this is not a regular superhero movie when you can easily tell the bad guys from good guys and get the flawless happy ending. Well, who cares… Why so serious? 😉